DOUBLE-MINDED /?/

by Rebecca Joy Leslie

“Not to speak is to speak. Not to act is to act.”—Dietrich Bonhoeffer

“Hath God said?”—the Serpent (Genesis 3)

“…for the one who doubts is like a wave of the sea that is driven and tossed by the wind…he is a double-minded man, unstable in all his ways.”—James 1

Afraid of winning, afraid of losing;

Afraid of judgments, judging, choosing;

No space between, no hiding place;

Yet hiding from taking

A stand by faith.

How strange it is, that neutral zone.

Hidden in Eden? unseen? alone?

“Hath God said?” No answer is made:

No choices made

In a silent grave.

Becoming more, while less-becoming;

Choiceless, yet choosing a mortal gloaming;

In/Exclusivity—takes without returning

And leaves no place

For grace…

Ask and you shall receive:

The Cross is a “plus.”

Taking a stand, He took away doubt:

The “minus."

In between /?/

No escape from response to

“Did you trust Me or did you not

To make more space

For Grace?”

Rebecca is a freshman hailing from a small-town Vermont homeschool, “Gripfast Academy.” She plans to study linguistics at Gordon in preparation for supporting the world Bible translation movement. She enjoys deep discussions, words and their origins, British and classical literature (including The Lord of the Rings), Latin American culture and cuisine, the history of ideas, essay-writing, grass-roots politics, Greek, and classical ballet.